I am writing this letter to myself.

 Yesterday a virus caught my mind.

 I am swimming in fear.

 Where will the next customer come from?

 How am I going to pay my levies and taxes?

 How will I pay for my staff?

 The answer is I don't know despite having all the surrounding books.

 I don't know despite preaching the message that everything will be ok.

 While I face an uncertain future, I Can only trust that someone is winning somewhere.

 We can't all go down, one of us may rise.

 I am not a wishing type but at this moment I wish that the person who is winning be a friend, partner or family member.